We are always lost in our deserts,
not knowing what we lack,
sometimes even thinking we have enough of what we lack to give away.
And we walk and walk
and walk some more,
searching for something to guide us,
searching for what we lack,
but we don’t know where to search,
we don’t even know where to begin,
but every once in a while, life paints with delicate strokes (Serrat dixit, de vez en cuando la vida, afina con el pincel)
and where there was only drought, sand, sun and no mercy whatsoever,
a lonely voyage,
an oasis is suddenly born
or perhaps a mirage,
that satiates that thirst, which only a few moments earlier,
you didn’t even know was guiding each movement, each intention,
and that eternal thirst,
so sudden, all the same,
gives you no choice,
you run to that which appeared out of nowhere
and nothing in existence can detain you,
and trust me when I say it’s better that way,
and you run and run
and run some more
* I’ve been walking and running for nearly a billion seconds now, staying in my spot and sometimes advancing so far ahead –
some will say it’s destiny in action
that it was always inevitable
and just as suddenly as that desire arose,
you reach your destination,
you reach a mirage or you reach paradise,
and you’ll spend just enough time, not too much but not too little,
just enough time,
to satiate you or fill you with a vital energy,
and in some of these oases, you’ll spend your whole life,
and your thirst will disappear in those mirages, without drinking a drop,
as if to show you that the thirst itself was a mirage –
Life and its mysteries –
And although reaching a mirage breaks you down, every once in a while,
and you want to cry and cry
and cry some more
and it makes you want to decide that you don’t want to go on,
but for the love of all that’s good,
never stop walking,
walk and walk
and walk some more,
until you reach the final oasis
until you get all the answers
until you can no longer walk.
May this desire to always discover what life has in store for you never disappear,
may the next billion or two of these seconds
be as full of discovery, love and growth
and may no deception let you down
and may none of your joyful states change your oases to mirages that aren’t really there.
